My Revolution

December 9th, 2022

My life was a series of snoozed alarms
I was keeping everything on pause
With six months of poems that I never wrote
I started to embrace these flaws
I pretended that I wasn’t phased
When tragedy fell wherever I went
Because I followed myself everywhere I’d go
So this is my letter of intent
I can build a better story in my head
So that is what I will do
I’ll put myself through agony
To see how I can make it through
These tears I cry are golden
Because I know I will overcome
These feelings that went unwritten
That I can no longer hide from


December 8th, 2022

Once upon a time we were happy
And now that feeling is gone
Saying “I love you” out of habit
Made me feel I’d done something wrong
Debating whether to stay or go
Through moments of despair and confusion
I didn’t want it to be over
But it felt like an illusion
I’d say the same things over
My message never changed
You still refused to listen
Our marriage became estranged
Screaming in my head that I didn’t want this
Feeling completely divided
Praying for some conclusion
When deep down it’d been decided
I’m looking for something that you can’t give
It’s time for dissolution
I need to move on and let this go
It’s time for my revolution

RIP Karissa Urban

August 25th, 2022

I tried to work through our neverending strife
But it soon consumed my entire life
I weathered the storms of every ache
And there’s only so much a person can take
I tried to love you but you shut me out
Filled my head with nothing but doubt
You never understood my language of love
So I never felt anything but the lack thereof
When I was injured you only thought of gain
Leaving me to pick myself up in vain
You broke me with your absence of care
While I was belittled you stood and stared
You let your family speak to me with disdain
Bit your tongue which caused me pain
And when you apologized on my behalf
Your actions inscribed our epitaph