Unrequited

September 1st, 2009

When you say you love me, I feel comfort, but I don’t think I love you anymore. After all these years I still feel awkward when I see you, and I don’t think that’s going to change. You taught me so much I could never learn on my own. Thank you for teaching me how to feel and how to hurt. I’ve gotten to the point I just want to take myself so far, to where my knees give out, and no matter where I am, I’ll be okay. I want to think that I will always have you as a friend, because no matter how in love with you I was, I don’t think being more would be best for us ever again. Thank you for helping me to grow, and for being part of my experience, but most of all, thank you for never loving me back.

My Bones

January 20th, 2011

Her hair was red
Just like fire
She was my weakness
My desire
She led me to my bed
Then left me all alone
Things never felt right
When I was all alone
Her red hair went away
She never wanted to stay
I loved her
And she let me slip away
I wasn’t a priority
My pain was cause I cared
But any time I needed you
You were never there
I let you play my heart
I let you in my head
I loved you to my bones
But you f*cked me over instead
I didn’t want you anymore
But now my hair is red
And you’re no longer here
So I take her to my bed

Lying

January 7th, 2011

Lying in the middle of the road
Where Shadowcrest met Chesbro
It never felt so right
With all those people around
But I could only see you
And then you were gone
I never had you
I’d be lying if I said I never wanted you
Lying down when you’re pacing my room
On the phone with her
All I wanted was those words for me
But they would never be
I’d be lying if I said I never loved you
Lying in my bed
Our lips are slowly meeting
But your phone is buzzing
Because she’s texting you
And I wished your eyes were only for me
But they couldn’t see
I’d still be lying if I said I never wanted you to love me