Reflection

The End of Bargaining

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September 22nd, 2025

You’ve chained me in emotional purgatory
There’s no more reanimation
I’m not a coping mechanism
To save you from your damnation
I waited for a love
That was never promised
We never talked about it
We were everything but honest
I felt the under current when we’d speak
And I tried not to get sucked in
Your wounds reflected my own
In a way neither of us could win 
I spent years bargaining with myself
Now here I am in acceptance
I couldn’t walk away
Because you were my reflectance
I got consequences
And you only had excuses
So you left me in your past
Once you saw me as useless 

Like A Moth To A Flame

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March 21st, 2025

For six months I practiced patience
Not trying to rush a connection
Then things never moved forward
Now I’m stuck in reflection
What did you even want
Were you just playing a game
As I search for any answers
You bury all of your pain
But I know you’ll think of me one day
When you see 11:11 on the clock
Maybe driving past a bowling alley
Or downtown near my old block
When you’re on our favorite game
And you see someone playing Kayle
Or another person named Grimm
And it’ll hit you like hell
I hope you can’t hear GNF now
Without thinking about me
“You don’t know what you have ’til it’s gone”
Is going to sink in eventually
Knowing that you didn’t want to try
And never told me what you wanted
Though I’m empty just the same 
You’ll be the one who’s haunted

Real

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July 25th, 2011

The mirror can’t see what I won’t show
The things I don’t even want to know
I led myself into this game
I watched myself emerge in shame
I closed my eyes to hide the fear
But all the words I could still hear
Everything I could still feel
Oh how I wish this wasn’t real