November 26th, 2025
You’re searching through my blog
For answers I’d given had you asked
Because I’m an open book
You’re the one behind a mask
Did you listen to my playlist
On your drive out of town?
I can see what you saw
Is that why you broke down?
You unraveled at my words
About you breaking my heart
Antagonizing me for writing about it
Like you had no part
You never let me know you
You never wanted to commit
So when I’ve said “hey stranger”
Just know that I really meant it
April 14th, 2025
This is cliche but it didn’t kill me
I’m just done with this silence
I’m over your inconsistency
Knowing I’ll never find reliance
As the feelings come in waves
I accept that I am broken
And my words won’t change anything
So I leave them unspoken
No one can fix me except myself
But that’s a job that I keep failing
Because I gave you power over me
And then you kept bailing
Maybe it’s the loneliness
That’s making me feel haunted
I just wish it wasn’t you
Who made me feel unwanted
Even though I want to tell you this
It’s easier to not bring it up again
Because I never asked for anything
And you couldn’t even be a friend
It didn’t even need to be a horizon
You could’ve brought me anything
Now this is the third year in a row
Where you won’t know me in spring
You decided to let me drown
But I know what people say
That it needs to rain in April
To enjoy the flowers in May
February 6th, 2025
I wanted to write
I wanted to set goals
But my mind betrays me
More than anyone knows
I wanted resolutions
I wanted a good year
But my nervous system’s broken
And everything is unclear