Reflective Reverie

March 5th, 2024

I thought you were lost
I wasn’t sure what to do
But I found you
Still right where I left you
The pain in your eyes
That you don’t want to show
I can see that it’s there
And you won’t let it go
That smile on your face
You wear as a front
Others see it too
But they never confront
The tremble in your voice
Holding back words
Because once they are out
They can’t be unheard
The thoughts in your head
You wear them so loud
And with where you came from
You should feel so proud
The curves of your body
You were taught to hate
But others would kill
For a body that great
The shaking of your hands
The fidgeting you do
The anxiety is present
But you no longer let it consume you
You’ve been made fun of for your legs
Lacking in bronze
But carried by your feet
They’ve ran you half marathons
All these things you hate
Like Bullet For My Valentine said
You are learning to love
And embrace them instead
Taking it day by day
You pour into yourself
They say you must find love within
To be able to love someone else
This is more than a journey
It’s a lifelong mission
But facing your demons
Is your greatest opposition
When you stop carrying everything
When you let go of the tension
When you embrace yourself
You’ll find there’s no more competition
Focus on what you love
Even if you hate the word
Learn to welcome it again
After everything that occurred
The moon tattoo on your shoulder
When you smile with your eyes
The parts of you that you love
And you don’t have to disguise
I can see it now
Everything is so clear
That’s what happens
When I accept what’s in my mirror

Just Another Drink

February 23rd, 2011

Just one more sip
But somehow the bottle’s already gone
It never stays full for long
She lays in her room
She knows nothing’s okay
She knows she’s right
But it’s all wrong

Through a night’s sleep
The day disappears
It just disappears
It’s already gone

Just another drink
And another bottle
Things fall apart
The roots so deep
What you’ve come to be
Just another drink

So unforgiving
It won’t leave her glass
This isn’t her
It’s all just a blur
But I see so clear
The ending so near
Of my loss of faith

Another drop
And my heart stops
It can no longer feel

I’ve become so numb
I’m just too young
To know who you’ve become
Would you want that for me
To do as I see
To give up everything
For just another drink

New Year’s Eve

December 31st, 2010

I can’t believe it’s over
It still seemed so young
An empty feeling started
To end with a full one
A weakened hug
To find a hand
And lips that aren’t my own
A while before
A lust-filled night
Left nothing at my door
A haunting feeling
That comes and goes
That just can’t be ignored
A ghost awaits
To haunt my thoughts
And tempt me with allure
An empty kiss
A half-filled hug
Left emptiness endured
To find a hand
And open lips
To fill the empty hole
That night of lust
Turned into more
To find another soul
Beauty sparks
But sleepless nights
A flame was never blown
The ghost awaits
And haunts the nights
Of disconnected souls
A loving hug
And lips I found
Create and fill the whole
But in the dark
And in the sparks
Two flames will kill my soul