July 12th, 2005
I thought I was in love
But I was wrong
Why did I think
That was our song
How do feelings
That were there before
Disappear an hour later
With the slam of a door
Song
Can You Hear Me
January 4th, 2005
Don’t turn away
To look back again
Don’t say goodbye
Then act like nothing happened
Don’t break my heart
Stay apart
Then return to say hello
[Chorus:]
Hello, hello
Can you hear me now
It hurts me to be apart
I’m walking away
But it’s breaking my heart
Hello, hello
Can you hear me wow
Hello, hello
My heart’s screaming now
It breaks my heart
When you talk to me
So I try to stay apart
And you still can’t see
The pain you caused me
Can you hear me
[Chorus:]
Hello, hello
Can you hear me now
It hurts me to be apart
I’m walking away
But it’s breaking my heart
Hello, hello
Can you hear me wow
Hello, hello
My heart’s screaming now
My life disappears
Bit by bit
Everyday I’m throwing
Some sorta fit
You passed through my life
At the blink of my eyes
And once I opened them
What a surprise
You were gone
[Chorus:]
Hello, hello
Can you hear me now
It hurts me to be apart
I’m walking away
But it’s breaking my heart
Hello, hello
Can you hear me wow
Hello, hello
My heart’s screaming now
Note: I’m back! I wanted to say thank you to all of my readers, I didn’t make any posts in January but I continued to get traffic every single day:
I needed a break to figure out what I wanted to post next. I realized I only had 11 posts for 2005?! I discovered I have two full notebooks and countless loose leaf pages of writing for that year. Most of it is juvenile teenage angst, which is likely why I skipped it years ago. However, it was all a part of my journey as an author, so here’s age 12-13 for me!
The Vertigo of Letting Go
April 16th, 2024
There’s guys I gave four chances to
Won’t let there be a fifth
I fell for Mr. Colbert
But first I fell for Mr. Smith
Both of these guys
Had one too many chances
Won’t let there be another
Under any circumstances
[Chorus:]
But I see them in my dreams
And in the people I may know
And the thought of reuniting
Still gives me vertigo
There’s a part of me that’s scared
And not ready to let them go
And trying to move on
There’s a part of me that’s hollow
They exist on paper
And in the corners of my mind
I spend more often than not
Trying to convince myself I’m fine
I miss who I was before
I met either of them in person
Never knew someone so little
For that I am most certain
[Chorus:]
But I see them in my dreams
And in the people I may know
And the thought of reuniting
Still gives me vertigo
There’s a part of me that’s scared
And not ready to let them go
And trying to move on
There’s a part of me that’s hollow
They probably don’t remember it
All the details that I dwell
And missing them lacks logic
Because they put me through hell
And I need to give credit
Where credit is due
Megan Cromwell wrote the song
That inspired me to write this for both of you
[Chorus:]
But I see them in my dreams
And in the people I may know
And the thought of reuniting
Still gives me vertigo
There’s a part of me that’s scared
And not ready to let them go
And trying to move on
There’s a part of me that’s hollow
And maybe I’m thankful
I never had to pick between either
They showed up at different times
And I ended up with neither
They cut the ties
They let me down
When I needed them most
They were nowhere to be found
[Chorus 2:]
And I saw them in my dreams
And in the people I may know
But we’ll never reunite
Because it’s time I let them go
A part of me was scared
And it still gives me vertigo
But I’m still moving on
Filling the parts that they left hollow