Inadmissible

September 22nd, 2025

I’ve been lost in your perception 
Since the last time that we kissed
I am tired of you weighing me down
It’s been years of this
You shouldn’t have reached out
When I opted for silence
I was choosing myself
Because you didn’t want alliance
I’ve pulled back a lot
But this silence is draining
And I’m finding some clarity
That this isn’t sustaining
I search our old conversations
Evidence that we existed
But outside of messages
No pictures or things gifted
I know I wasn’t always right
But that doesn’t make me wrong
Because I spent years putting out fires
That you were starting all along
You lit the bridge to watch me burn
Attrition couldn’t come quicker
I mourn the ghost of who we never were
All we ever amounted to was a flicker
You made me the scapegoat
Vindicated in your excuses
Then you discarded all the evidence
To forget you wouldn’t choose this

The End of Bargaining

September 22nd, 2025

You’ve chained me in emotional purgatory
There’s no more reanimation
I’m not a coping mechanism
To save you from your damnation
I waited for a love
That was never promised
We never talked about it
We were everything but honest
I felt the under current when we’d speak
And I tried not to get sucked in
Your wounds reflected my own
In a way neither of us could win 
I spent years bargaining with myself
Now here I am in acceptance
I couldn’t walk away
Because you were my reflectance
I got consequences
And you only had excuses
So you left me in your past
Once you saw me as useless 

The End of The Circle

September 22nd, 2025

I’ve apologized for pushing
Though you should’ve stayed away
Because you chose this cyclical pattern 
Of the games that you play
Was this a one sided connection
Our memories are fleeting
And I should have known better
Because our history is repeating
You’re like hitting a bowling pin
That wobbles but never falls
What a disappointment
I never saw behind your walls
I’ve filled pages in metaphors
Wondering if my words were pretentious
Always dancing around the meaning
As I didn’t want us to be fictitious
I think maybe that’s the reason
That I didn’t want to leave
Because if I never confronted it
Then I could still believe
I thought love could be found in patience
Building tolerance for my disclosure
Dropping little things in moderation
You still left me without closure
I guess you never figured things out
Keeping me on a leash was never fair
You can run but what are you running from
Maybe you’re damaged beyond repair