Inadmissible

September 22nd, 2025

I’ve been lost in your perception 
Since the last time that we kissed
I am tired of you weighing me down
It’s been years of this
You shouldn’t have reached out
When I opted for silence
I was choosing myself
Because you didn’t want alliance
I’ve pulled back a lot
But this silence is draining
And I’m finding some clarity
That this isn’t sustaining
I search our old conversations
Evidence that we existed
But outside of messages
No pictures or things gifted
I know I wasn’t always right
But that doesn’t make me wrong
Because I spent years putting out fires
That you were starting all along
You lit the bridge to watch me burn
Attrition couldn’t come quicker
I mourn the ghost of who we never were
All we ever amounted to was a flicker
You made me the scapegoat
Vindicated in your excuses
Then you discarded all the evidence
To forget you wouldn’t choose this

Heart Doctor

June 21st, 2005

Don’t fix it doctor
I know that it broke
Love’s just some kind of
Practical joke
We’re all given a heart
For better or for worse
But it seems like love
Is some kind of curse
Tear up my heart
Tear down my soul
Burning inside of me
I let you go