Cursed

February 8th, 2007

Someone tell me
How this works
Is this my heart
Or is it a curse
The feelings so deep
That nobody sees
Are currently tearing up
The insides of me
I want to believe
Everything you say
But my heart says
There’s no way
It tells me all these things
They aren’t real
It tells me to
Forget to feel
So I try
I really do
But all these feelings
Lead me to you
And I hold on
I keep my hope
But all my heart says
Is nope
Don’t believe
The words they say
Just wait
Wait for the day
They will twist words
They will lie
And one day because of them
You will cry
I hold my tears back
I keep my fake smile
I keep my hope strong
I overthink my denial
But still my heart
It drives me insane
It shouldn’t be like this
I shouldn’t feel this pain
I close my eyes
Because what’s in my heart
Is slowly tearing me
Apart

2007 (5)

Let You Go

October 18th, 2007

Every kiss
Is filled with lies
And with each one
A part of me dies
And from your lips
I feel the pain
It’s taking me over
And drives me insane
Then in your eyes
The lies are showing
And the pain doesn’t stop
It’s only growing
And I wonder
If you can feel my heart breaking
There’s something from me
That you’re taking
I gave you my love
But it wasn’t enough
Don’t you know
I’m not that tough
I want to know
What you’re thinking about
Are all your thoughts about me
Just doubt
I’m falling in love
And it’s breaking my heart
And all my world
Is falling apart
There’s still so much
That I don’t know
And I wish that I could
Let you go

2007 (1)

Footprints

August 29th, 2007

Such a kiss
With only half feeling
My heart is still
In the process of healing
The night is coming
To an end
And in the morning
You’ll still just be my friend
If you don’t love me
Don’t even try to fake it
I gave you my heart
It’s okay if you break it
I want to know
What’s on your secretive mind
And see behind
What leaves me blind
A girl like you
Can only do my heart no good
You left footprints in my heart
In every place you stood
Never before
Have I felt anything like this
And every time I’m alone
It’s you I start to miss

2007 (8)