New Year’s Eve

December 31st, 2010

I can’t believe it’s over
It still seemed so young
An empty feeling started
To end with a full one
A weakened hug
To find a hand
And lips that aren’t my own
A while before
A lust-filled night
Left nothing at my door
A haunting feeling
That comes and goes
That just can’t be ignored
A ghost awaits
To haunt my thoughts
And tempt me with allure
An empty kiss
A half-filled hug
Left emptiness endured
To find a hand
And open lips
To fill the empty hole
That night of lust
Turned into more
To find another soul
Beauty sparks
But sleepless nights
A flame was never blown
The ghost awaits
And haunts the nights
Of disconnected souls
A loving hug
And lips I found
Create and fill the whole
But in the dark
And in the sparks
Two flames will kill my soul

Blind Confusion

December 20th, 2010

Tomorrow’s not looking good
But today’s not the day
Yesterday wasn’t either
Why do things happen this way
This is not what I want
But I don’t know if that’s true
I’m just so confused
I don’t know what to do
I know what I have
And I know what I don’t
It’s not going to happen
I can’t do what I won’t
But if it’s true
Why are these things in my mind
Why do I have eyes
That makes me feel blind
Why do I have questions
Of things I don’t want to know
And how can I love someone
Yet want to let them go

Write You Away

December 18th, 2010

No other words to describe it
I still wonder in guilt
I call this confusion
Locked in the walls I built
They’re not coming down
I live life in shame
And the more I start to wonder
The more I feel insane
Nothing’s alright
Nothing’s okay
Why are you still on my mind
Why won’t you go away
I write you off
The words drop from my pen
But after sometime
You’re back once again