Scars Heal

January 26th, 2010

I know that what I felt was real
But I had to let those feelings heal
I knew that we wouldn’t last
You left me in your past
You brought me out of darker days
I turned away from my bad ways
You brought my smile back
And now the pain is what I lack
And even though you are gone
And I knew you’d be all along
I still wonder about the time
Things were bad until you made them fine
And you’re gone but I still smile
And I’ve been questioning if this was fake for awhile
But I don’t think I can deny
I’m happy now and that’s no lie
I’m not sure how my feelings work
But they don’t doubt you were a jerk
You can’t even apologize
You try to hide the truth with lies
And you just might not understand
And I didn’t at first because none of this I planned
Anything can happen and I know that because of you
The doors of reality you opened me up to

About Last Night

January 13th, 2010

It whispered to me last night
I know it’s only words
I’m driving myself crazy
But you don’t know what I heard
What would’ve happened if it stayed
It just went by so fast
What else would I have known
Besides good things never last

Voices

January 4th, 2010

I hear things I shouldn’t know
I listen far too well
But I don’t listen to the voices
The wrong they always tell
And I feel something in the dark
A power in myself
And I don’t know if I’m alone
Is there anybody else
And in my eyes you can’t look too deep
To find the clock that makes me run
Because I hide so well what you can’t see
So I can have some fun
And maybe I’m not who you thought I was
But we will never know
You’ll never know me like I do
Because everyone lets go
So try to find the deep unknown
But it’s harder than you think
The voices hide me oh so well
And you can’t make me sink
So here I am back in the dark
To voices oh so loud
The more I know, the more I feel
The knowledge makes me proud
It drags me out of the dark
It starts to make me see
That how I think and how I feel
Is not reality
The blank and dark surrounding
The empty but filling space
You can take all that I have
If you can read my poker face
But the blind will start to see
Then the deaf will start to hear
The starving will be full
The miracles are real
And on the edge
With no inspiration
The wind blew
And I became my motivation
So with a jump
I found my voice
And it feels good
To make my own choice