December 14th, 2021
How can it be over
When it never started
I opened up
And you left half-hearted
Maybe this was nothing
But an illusion
You left me questions
And no conclusion
Questions
Crazy
November 8th, 2009
It’s crazy
how people you think you know
turn into
people you don’t.
Eyes wide
there’s so much you can’t see
though it is all real
but it doesn’t exist
because it was fake.
Loud noises
nothing that you want to hear
echo
ear to ear
make it stop
it’s not real
it’s fake
I don’t know these people.
I shake
and I can’t stop
but you can’t see it
because it’s not real
but it’s not fake
I feel it
I feel you
it’s crazy
I don’t know you.
I want to scream
but once I start
I fear
I’ll forget how to stop.
Quitting
don’t be a quitter
scream
and don’t stop.
I cry
and not the kind for pain
the kind
where you lose your mind.
I breathe
but not naturally
I force in the air
but it finds a way out
before reaching my lungs.
Inhale nothing
sink into myself
I can’t escape
you can’t escape
because you’re fighting
yourself.
I thought I knew
myself
you
the mirror
but I don’t.
I found a way
to comfort me
but inside
nothing’s what it is
you can’t see
what I can see.
I’m sinking
into myself
and it’s crazy;
But
I
don’t
know
you.
So Confused
October 11th, 2009
So suddenly
I can’t believe
I let myself get into this
And anxiously
I made believe
Happy endings really exist
And on my own
And so alone
I found comfort in a voice
And in the sound
So interwound
I led myself into a choice
And questioning
What once believed
A path I’d find would do me right
And nervously
I can’t believe
I once was looking for the light
And in the end
It will make sense
But nothing seems to anymore
And up and down
This stupid road
Still looking for an open door
I once believed
I once thought true
That love was a mutual feeling
But years of pain
And weekly crying
My broken heart’s finally done healing
And late at night
I couldn’t sleep
With thoughts of you clouding my mind
I took the pain
I took the confusion
Cause loving you just made me blind
And out of sight
Was never out of mind
Until I found someone thought to be better
But I got caught up
I tripped too fast
To find myself under the weather
And friends can’t see
When they’re not around
And maybe I found
I like it that way
And so confused
And so confused
And so confused
And so confused
I can’t say it enough
To bring out it’s worth
Because so confused
Is all I’m worth
Doll Poetry 