The Truth

January 7th, 2011

In your eyes
I don’t know what I see
I want to be happy
I want to believe
In the dark
I don’t know what I feel
Anxiety takes over
But I don’t know if it’s real
In your arms
I don’t know what to say
I want to believe
But it won’t fade away
In the light
I don’t want to go
If the truth tears us apart
I won’t let you know

In & Out

January 7th, 2011

You waited at the door
And I ran to beat the crowd
And I don’t know what you wanted
But we got into my car
Down the street we stopped
Almost too nervous to talk
Much too anxious to eat
I order small
And in the cold we chat
Our eyes awkwardly meet
We’re not so comfortable
And much too shy
We walk down the street
Too nervous to show how we feel
An awkward night of fun
Leads us back at my car
On the way home
It feels so slow
We beat around the bush
I’m feeling so anxious
What I had been waiting for
For so long
You take my neck
And turn my head
Then the night slowly starts to fade


November 16th, 2021

I’m running in this race
With no destination
My heart beats off pace
I don’t know which location
But my anxiety eats away
Like I’ve done something wrong
Constant imposter syndrome
When I just want to belong
A burst of inspiration
Is blown out like a flame
But the burning continues
I can still feel the pain
And I can’t help it sometimes
I feel like a burden
Using words against me
Is this life when you’re urban