2004

Goodbye

/ Karissa Doll / Leave a comment

August 2004

It’s hard for me to say
What’s becoming of this day
Never knowing what to do
I always end up running back to you

[Chorus:]
Hey, I was dreaming of you
Late last night (oh)
I was in love with you
But now that feeling’s gone
Never knowing what to say
It’s like you ditched me every day
My heart is beating uncontrollably
I’m going to cry
It’s time to say goodbye
To all of my feelings that have been unleashed
Lock them in a cage, get out of this stupid stage
All of this happened because you said goodbye

Maybe I could at least say sorry
But the pain you put me through isn’t over
I’m always crying over this but it happened months ago
It’s hard to forget all your twisted lies

I wish I could lock them up in a cage
Why am I stuck in this stupid stage
Water dripping from my eyes so much like a faucet
My dreams are missing in action

[Chorus:]
Hey, I was dreaming of you
Late last night (oh)
I was in love with you
But now that feeling’s gone
Never knowing what to say
It’s like you ditched me every day
My heart is beating uncontrollably
I’m going to cry
It’s time to say goodbye
To all of my feelings that have been unleashed
Lock them in a cage, get out of this stupid stage
All of this happened because you said goodbye

Maybe you could have said sorry
And maybe I would have forgave you
But that’s all for now
Never say sorry
It means nothing
Goodbye

Goodbye
Goodbye
Sorry means nothing
Goodbye

My heart is beating really fast
My hands are getting sweaty
Will this moment ever last
Holding on is getting hard
Why is life like this

[Chorus:]
Hey, I was dreaming of you
Late last night (oh)
I was in love with you
But now that feeling’s gone
Never knowing what to say
It’s like you ditched me every day
My heart is beating uncontrollably
I’m going to cry
It’s time to say goodbye
To all of my feelings that have been unleashed
Lock them in a cage, get out of this stupid stage
All of this happened because you said goodbye

Disclosure: I found some older writing, mostly songs, on my computer. I will be posting these the remainder of this month – feel free to laugh at my teenage angst!

2004 (5)

All Been Done

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December 6th, 2004

Oh I feel so bad today
I’m on my way back to San Jose
Catching teardrops from my eyes
Watching them fall from the skies – above

[Chorus:]
My hopes are gone, and I wipe my eyes
Knowing life’s just a surprise
Life’s a game that has been won
So what’s left to do when it’s all been done – yeah

Oh – what to do
I can’t even breathe
I’ve fallen for you
I’m looking around
But no one’s there
Why doesn’t anyone care

Life’s a game that has been won
And everything has all been done
When you think there’s nothing left to do
Remember that I fell for you

[Chorus:]
My hopes are gone, and I wipe my eyes
Knowing life’s just a surprise
Life’s a game that has been won
So what’s left to do when it’s all been done – yeah

Breathing slowly as I exit the house
Being as quiet as a mouse
Hoping you will know where I am
Closing the door so it won’t slam

Looking around but you’re still not here
Sliding closer to my fear
Dreams will die and memories will fade
Sitting alone in the shade – of the moon

[Chorus:]
My hopes are gone, and I wipe my eyes
Knowing life’s just a surprise
Life’s a game that has been won
So what’s left to do when it’s all been done – yeah

Should I have told you to come
No one can be number one
When you think there’s nothing left to do
Just remember I fell for you

2004 (3)

My Tears

/ Karissa Doll / 1 Comment

October 2nd, 2004

There’s nothing there to find
My hopes have disappeared
I could feel it
The misty tears running down my cheek
I tried to smile
But I couldn’t

I spun around
Feeling weak and dizzy
I knew I couldn’t change the world
I blinked but I couldn’t see
Everything was so blurry

[Chorus:]
Everyone’s so hard on me
Watching people tryna find out why
Blurry visions conquer me
Hope brings out my tears
Though I’ve gone through all these years

There’s nothing I can do
I can’t make a difference
Smiles are fading
I’m just waiting
I’m a waste of time
My life’s a waste of time

Hope is gone
Fear has come
Knowing I can never be number one
I laugh at myself
My life is fading

[Chorus:]
Everyone’s so hard on me
Watching people tryna find out why
Blurry visions conquer me
Hope brings out my tears
Though I’ve gone through all these years

I’m in a car
Running from my problems
My tears, my tears
Are streaming down my face

Water falling from the sky
The earth is crying too
I feel bad for the world
I’m lying to everyone

[Chorus:]
Everyone’s so hard on me
Watching people tryna find out why
Blurry visions conquer me
Hope brings out my tears
Though I’ve gone through all these years

[Chorus:]
Everyone’s so hard on me
Watching people tryna find out why
Blurry visions conquer me
Hope brings out my tears
Though I’ve gone through all these years

Alone…

2004 (2)