You Said You Missed Me First

January 24th, 2023

The euphoria I feel with you
It’s like I am on a high
But then I hit my comedown
And it makes me wonder why
The first time you told me you missed me
I thought you were full of sh*t
But when you whispered it to me
I thought you might have meant it
The signals you give to me
I don’t know when to go
The red light is still on
But do I proceed because you said so
I don’t know what you want from me
Your actions don’t match what you said
That I was getting too comfortable with you
When I think that was you instead

Phenylethylamine

January 21st, 2023

How do I process what happened
When I’m not even sure
Am I falling in love
Last night is still a blur
The way you told me you missed me
The eye contact that we shared
Things felt different than before
As if you almost cared

Sirens

January 7th, 2011

Falling to the floor
In shock
No idea what happened
I look up at the wall
I shake in pain
And grab my head
My hands come down wet
My hands came down red
I run to the bathroom
The bleeding won’t stop
The pounding so loud
The people surrounding me
The questions won’t end
And as soon as they do
The sirens take me away
To another place
They say I’ll be okay

What better day to share the story of the events that transpired on 4/11/2003, and how I got what I like to call my “Harry Potter” scar.