Blind Confusion

December 20th, 2010

Tomorrow’s not looking good
But today’s not the day
Yesterday wasn’t either
Why do things happen this way
This is not what I want
But I don’t know if that’s true
I’m just so confused
I don’t know what to do
I know what I have
And I know what I don’t
It’s not going to happen
I can’t do what I won’t
But if it’s true
Why are these things in my mind
Why do I have eyes
That makes me feel blind
Why do I have questions
Of things I don’t want to know
And how can I love someone
Yet want to let them go

Fears

March 24th, 2010

It scares me
The thought that once again I’m fooled
Because I am so naive
And vulnerable
Should I trust again
The question doesn’t leave my mind
I’m feeling so lost
I’m feeling less sain
My heart has a way
Of getting the best of me
Does this deserve the best?
Do I even have a best?
These chemicals are overwhelming
I can’t keep a thought
I can’t fight my feelings
I need this to stop
I don’t know what’s right
I’m scared of the past
I try to keep hope
But I just can’t forget
Haunting my thoughts
And I can’t let it go
These feelings are confusing me
More than you know
Should I give in
Should I take a chance
My heart is so restless
Beating out of my chest