March 7th, 2026
It’s been a while
Since I went somewhere to write
I’m going through the motions
Fawn, freeze, fight, and flight
When I think that I’ll be okay
I start to lose my sh*t
I saw a future with someone who left
That’s not something I can forget
When things become too real
People run away
Stuck in this pattern
No one ever stays
But I will keep trying
I refuse to concede
I know that I’m worth it
One day someone won’t leave
October 1st, 2011
Another night
Alone with my thoughts
I can’t win this fight
I guess I forgot
In my head
It all goes wrong
This can’t be right
I need to stay strong
I feel it in my head
But not in my heart
All my fears
And I’m falling apart
Mixed up
My past left me this way
And alone with my thoughts
Is how I will stay
I want to tell you
I want you to care
But the comfort to speak
Just isn’t there
February 6th, 2025
I wanted to write
I wanted to set goals
But my mind betrays me
More than anyone knows
I wanted resolutions
I wanted a good year
But my nervous system’s broken
And everything is unclear