Inadmissible

September 22nd, 2025

I’ve been lost in your perception 
Since the last time that we kissed
I am tired of you weighing me down
It’s been years of this
You shouldn’t have reached out
When I opted for silence
I was choosing myself
Because you didn’t want alliance
I’ve pulled back a lot
But this silence is draining
And I’m finding some clarity
That this isn’t sustaining
I search our old conversations
Evidence that we existed
But outside of messages
No pictures or things gifted
I know I wasn’t always right
But that doesn’t make me wrong
Because I spent years putting out fires
That you were starting all along
You lit the bridge to watch me burn
Attrition couldn’t come quicker
I mourn the ghost of who we never were
All we ever amounted to was a flicker
You made me the scapegoat
Vindicated in your excuses
Then you discarded all the evidence
To forget you wouldn’t choose this

Closer

March 18th, 2025 

I never thought we’d get close enough
But I learned the changes of your tone
From joking around in a group of people
To the disheartened frustration you’ve shown
The care when speaking to your sick dog
That I’d hear sometimes as you’d let me go
Distinguishable differences in your voice
That you let me close enough to know