Colorblind

August 17th, 2009

Started out just like a song
I thought we both would sing along
Happily ever after – just like a movie
Feeling good while the beat flows through me

I didn’t want there to be an end
I didn’t want you to be less than a friend
Sat up at night just thinking things through
I was so in love with you

[Chorus:]
Music notes float around the air
The color green is everywhere
I used to have you on my mind
But now I’m only colorblind

You were my favorite song on repeat
Fell in love with the words and beat
The song ended and so did we
At first, it was too hard to see

[Chorus:]
Music notes float around the air
The color green is everywhere
I used to have you on my mind
But now I’m only colorblind

I used to think about you at night
Scared that things wouldn’t turn out right
Scared that you wouldn’t sing along
And you f***** up cause you were wrong

Sometimes I wish I had never met you
But I think it was important to
You taught me lessons that I needed to know
So I am glad that you let go

[Chorus:]
Music notes float around the air
The color green is everywhere
I used to have you on my mind
But now I’m only colorblind

Note: I am very aware that I’m not a singer, and I mess up a lot in my video. However, I used to be so eager to post things I just wrote that I would upload them as is. I was brave, and I’m not ashamed of that!

Carry Me

August 13th, 2009

It all started out
As a simple request
Nothing intended
No interest
But it all got too deep – and
Thoughts began flowing
Carried away
I’m not sure where I’m going

[Chorus:]
I don’t know what to do
I’m so lost in my head
And I try to go forward
But backwards instead
And the clock keeps on ticking
Time keeps on moving
And I am so small
And I am still losing

My mind and my thoughts
They just won’t tag along
And for once I’m not confused
But for once it’s not wrong
And it’s only their opinions
But mine isn’t me
Then when I turn around
I don’t like what I see

[Chorus:]
I don’t know what to do
I’m so lost in my head
And I try to go forward
But backwards instead
And the clock keeps on ticking
Time keeps on moving
And I am so small
And I am still losing

And here I am
Just looking in the mirror
And who I thought I was
Is no longer clear
It’s just me in the world
Not sure what to say
Because speaking my thoughts
I get carried away

[Chorus:]
I don’t know what to do
I’m so lost in my head
And I try to go forward
But backwards instead
And the clock keeps on ticking
Time keeps on moving
And I am so small
And I am still losing

Please just pull me back
To who I once knew
I can’t keep on going
Just knowing it’s you
You didn’t say much
Or nothing at all
But here I am
Will you catch me where I fall

I’m Not Yours

July 23rd, 2009

You make me hear the colors
Make me feel the sounds
Make my heart beat faster
Make me scream out loud

There’s something in this feeling
Something I can’t hide
Something in you
Something’s getting to me now

[Pre-Chorus:]
And I don’t know
How much longer
I
Can
Take it

[Chorus:]
You’re here, then you’re not
I move on, you pull back
Up and down, left and right
I’m looking all around
I want you, to want me
And I know, that you know
But the only time I matter
Is when – I’m not yours

There’s something so relaxing
Something makes me feel alive
And as attention’s missing
I go off on my own

There’s something about the pain
Something about what you are
Something about the situation
I’m on the edge of defeat

[Pre-Chorus:]
And I don’t know
How much longer
I
Can
Take it

[Chorus:]
You’re here, then you’re not
I move on, you pull back
Up and down, left and right
I’m looking all around
I want you, to want me
And I know, that you know
But the only time I matter
Is when – I’m not yours

And here we go again
I’m being pushed away
I can’t take this game
Just stop playing me

[Pre-Chorus:]
And I don’t know
How much longer
I
Can
Take it

[Chorus:]
You’re here, then you’re not
I move on, you pull back
Up and down, left and right
I’m looking all around
I want you, to want me
And I know, that you know
But the only time I matter
Is when – I’m not yours

So, I’m not yours…

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