2004
I’ve got nothing to live for
Nothing to die for
Everything to run for
Everything to hide for
I can’t stand it anymore
I’ve got nothing at all
You took the extra step and let me fall
Turned on me behind my back
The pressure gained and felt like a smack
Blurry vision and runny mascara
Suddenly life seems so unfair
Rumors surround me like a wave of whispers
I’ve never felt more like a drifter
2004
I am crying
And no one can see
My heart runs the feelings
That flow inside of me
March 16th, 2024
Sitting in a coffee shop
I’m going through life’s trials
Forcing myself to write something
After running 6.2 miles
My life is a series
Of events and activities
Then working all week
And trying to maintain productivity
Two years on my own
I’ve been going through the motions
And even before that
I started bottling my emotions
I’ve been working so hard
I need to prove it to myself
I can find happiness
Without needing someone else
I don’t think anyone understands
Why I feel so lonely
Because I surround myself with people
But none of them know me
I don’t know how to drop my walls
I think I lack the wisdom
And until I start letting people in
I need to be my own support system
