Middle School

2004

I thought I escaped them
But now they’re back
This is my home
But they don’t understand
I can’t stand them anymore
And my parents don’t listen
When I want to escape them
And go to my friends
The answer’s always no
So to escape them
I have to go to school
I wouldn’t say it’s worse
But it doesn’t really help
Everyone hates me
That’s middle school for you
One minute you have friends
And the next you don’t
No matter what I do
Where I go
Where I hide
There’s always someone
Watching me
Haunting me
Following me
Telling me to do this
Do that
There’s no easy way out
So I sit here writing 
It helps the pain get out

Dreaming For Reality

December 13th, 2021

I thought I was past this
But here I am again
Longing for more
And holding it in
I thought I was wiser
But maybe I’m wrong
I still bite my tongue
And pretend to go along
I thought I was content
Now I know it’s not true
I’ll chase some new dreams
Because it’s been overdue

Taking Over Reality

December 15th, 2005

I slam the door shut
Keep these feelings away from me
It’s scaring me
What I’m becoming

[Chorus:]
I’m insane, are these normal feelings
I’m crazy, delusional
But it’s not a dream, reality
Destiny is calling me

Kinda crazy when you think about it
I’m falling into this empty pit
Catch me
Before it’s too late

I’ve already fallen too deep to be saved
I’m not sure but my dreams have taken over – reality

[Chorus:]
I’m insane, are these normal feelings
I’m crazy, delusional
But it’s not a dream, reality
Destiny is calling me

Lock the door and throw away the key
These feelings are sinking me
So lost in these daydreams
Everything’s not what it seems

Why’s life doing this to me
Dreams taking over reality
Sink me in the sea of death
Now it’s gone, nothing left

[Chorus:]
I’m insane, are these normal feelings
I’m crazy, delusional
But it’s not a dream, reality
Destiny is calling me

 

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