Invaluable

July 14th, 2022

I let my world come crashing down
I could no longer hold it together
The ends of my last thread had frayed
And hanging on was too much pressure
Over the years I’ve given up hoping
That happiness could be in my life
But I was a victim of my circumstance
And realized I shouldn’t be a wife
Because my life is decided by me
I don’t want this state of confusion
I want to discover who I really am
I spent too much time in a delusion
So I let my world shatter piece by piece
Until I could no longer recognize it
I can change my hair, my job, my home
But these memories won’t let me forget
Everything I went through was for a reason
So I need to see this through
I never found out what it’s worth
But in the end I’ll find my value

The last poem I wrote before this was in April, titled “Whatever It’s Worth.” I might not know yet – but I’m getting there. (Photographed: April 2022-July 2022)

That’s Not All

March 14th, 2006

You never answer when I call
You don’t catch me when I fall
You never helped guide me on my way
You just left me and pretended it was okay

Left me standing in the middle of the road
You taught me always to do what I was told
Thanks for trying to help me
You just guided me into insanity

[Chorus:]
Couldn’t you have at least said why
Couldn’t you have at least said goodbye
Couldn’t you have been here when I needed you
Because best friends always help you through

I thought we were best friends
But are we at our end?
You said that you would love me forever
Then you cracked under the pressure

[Chorus:]
Couldn’t you have at least said why
Couldn’t you have at least said goodbye
Couldn’t you have been here when I needed you
Because best friends always help you through

That’s not all, that’s not all
You could at least catch me when I fall
Or helped guide me on my way
But don’t leave me because it’s not okay

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