Free

August 21st, 2008

I don’t want your all
I just want you
You don’t have to change
I’ll still stay true
Because I love you
That’s a feeling I can’t abstain
And it’s okay if I hurt
It’s only pain
Pain is an emotion
And emotions you can overcome
Push them to the side
Don’t let them know who you’ve become
I can free myself
I’ll fly away like a bird
But I’m always coming back
I will never learn
You matter too much
I wish you could see
It’s complicated
And it will always be
Because not much matters more
Than love to me

2008 10 (0)

Cursed

February 8th, 2007

Someone tell me
How this works
Is this my heart
Or is it a curse
The feelings so deep
That nobody sees
Are currently tearing up
The insides of me
I want to believe
Everything you say
But my heart says
There’s no way
It tells me all these things
They aren’t real
It tells me to
Forget to feel
So I try
I really do
But all these feelings
Lead me to you
And I hold on
I keep my hope
But all my heart says
Is nope
Don’t believe
The words they say
Just wait
Wait for the day
They will twist words
They will lie
And one day because of them
You will cry
I hold my tears back
I keep my fake smile
I keep my hope strong
I overthink my denial
But still my heart
It drives me insane
It shouldn’t be like this
I shouldn’t feel this pain
I close my eyes
Because what’s in my heart
Is slowly tearing me
Apart

2007 (5)

Plagued

February 20th, 2019

The memories replay
I wish I could forget
Taking the wrong path
Is something I’ll always regret
You were only a ghost
That left me haunted
With dreams of things
That I never wanted
I still have flashbacks
Like PTSD
I wish I could forget
These memories
Though time goes on
The wounds don’t heal
If it was that easy to disappear
How do I know that you were real