Carry Me

August 13th, 2009

It all started out
As a simple request
Nothing intended
No interest
But it all got too deep – and
Thoughts began flowing
Carried away
I’m not sure where I’m going

[Chorus:]
I don’t know what to do
I’m so lost in my head
And I try to go forward
But backwards instead
And the clock keeps on ticking
Time keeps on moving
And I am so small
And I am still losing

My mind and my thoughts
They just won’t tag along
And for once I’m not confused
But for once it’s not wrong
And it’s only their opinions
But mine isn’t me
Then when I turn around
I don’t like what I see

[Chorus:]
I don’t know what to do
I’m so lost in my head
And I try to go forward
But backwards instead
And the clock keeps on ticking
Time keeps on moving
And I am so small
And I am still losing

And here I am
Just looking in the mirror
And who I thought I was
Is no longer clear
It’s just me in the world
Not sure what to say
Because speaking my thoughts
I get carried away

[Chorus:]
I don’t know what to do
I’m so lost in my head
And I try to go forward
But backwards instead
And the clock keeps on ticking
Time keeps on moving
And I am so small
And I am still losing

Please just pull me back
To who I once knew
I can’t keep on going
Just knowing it’s you
You didn’t say much
Or nothing at all
But here I am
Will you catch me where I fall

Answer Me

April 27th, 2009

It started off like a math problem
Me plus you and the answer is unknown
Time went by and the equation was solved
And it’s going to end alone

It wasn’t me who solved it though
I wasn’t strong enough
It’s just the way it has to be
And I’m just not that tough

[Chorus:]
And when you hold my hand
You make it feel alright
The tears form in my eyes
And I don’t want to end tonight

Time keeps moving faster
And I’m spinning in confusion
All this time it was only me
Everything was an illusion

[Chorus:]
And when you hold my hand
You make it feel alright
The tears form in my eyes
And I don’t want to end tonight

I’ve never been so confused
I just don’t know what to do
I’ve never felt so afraid
I don’t want to lose you

[Chorus:]
And when you hold my hand
You make it feel alright
The tears form in my eyes
I just don’t want to end tonight

The Secret Life of Dolls

January 15th, 2019

Let’s go back
To a story that never started
Where a porcelain toy
Wasn’t left broken hearted
Let’s go back
To memories that don’t exist
Because the bruises never formed
At the hands of angry fists
Let’s go back
To when you didn’t drink the bottle
It fell empty on its own
And you’re still a perfect role model
Let’s go back
To when you didn’t let me down
You must have told me you were moving
Before you left town
Let’s go back
To when our family was defined
And I will delete what never happened
From the archives of my mind