November 28th, 2009
It was the intensity of your curious eyes
burning into mine
with such confusion
that held me in awe for so long.
I had no grip on what I was doing
where I was going
and what the ending outcome would be
but I loved every moment of it.
Secret words we’d exchange
never fell from my lips
I only traced the words
with my fingertips –
Because they were mine
my secret
mine to hold
mine.
No actions followed our words
no more confused stares
we faded from that
right into awkward smiles
right into no longer existing.
No longer does any word
I say to you
mean anything
and your words are still secrets
but no longer my favorites.
You no longer light up my phone
and light up my face
with a smile
from the secrets we created
in a dizzy illusion
of what would seem to be a crush –
But we failed
and in a whirl of fading stars
I fell back to the ground.
I found my way up again
only to find
your words have been given away
but that’s okay.
Your words were more than enough
to fill my appetite
and no longer are they
what I crave.
Doll Poetry 