Same Story, Different Characters

March 29th, 2024

How many times can I write about the same thing
When will people start to grow bored
And every time I think I’ve finished the story
I don’t know how to cut the cord
The words spill out of me
So fast that they can’t stop
I’m writing all my feelings
The lowest moments through the top
I use the words I once wrote for something else
And I find a better way to make them fit
Even when they insert perfectly
I always feel like a counterfeit
So many words in my head
Not enough time to get them out
But when I’m sitting with my notebook
It’s drier than a drought
The message was written
There was no invisible ink
Reading between the lines
There’s more there than you think
I’ll keep writing the same things over
Until maybe they’ll make sense
I’m trying to wrap my mind around this
But I got lost in the suspense

“I don’t want to deal with this 🫠”

January 29th, 2023

If your intentions were to f*ck with my head
It seems like you’ve succeeded
Asking for reconciliation with me
Only for the past to be repeated
You’re leaving messages unread
Or not doing what you said you would
And I’m losing sleep at night
Hoping that I misunderstood
I told you that I was in bad mental health
And you showed your lack of concern
I didn’t want you to be another lesson
But maybe this time I’ll learn

The Red Nightgown

January 2nd, 2023

A Monday afternoon
Our lunchtime liaison
I was waiting for you
With my red nightgown on
The time ticked away
No message on my phone
I was waiting for you
But I sat there alone
The time came and went
You apologized at dusk
I was waiting for you
And then you killed the lust