Rest In Peace

August 15th, 2025

I don’t understand what love means
If not in sickness and in health
I spent years prioritizing you
And your needs above myself
But what is love if not the person
You can count on when you’re in distress
But you told me you were busy
And I could handle it myself
Your game was more important
Because it had just been released
As I called from blocks away
Wondering if I needed the police
And I couldn’t get past that moment
I was rear ended running an errand for you
Years later I find out that you’re gone forever
These moments neither of us can go back to

Inside The Shell

January 10th, 2025

Trust is something
I don’t know how to give
Because I moved on
But I still can’t forgive
The person who should’ve been there
Left me alone and broken
Pushed me into a shell of myself
Until I was no longer outspoken
Crippled me into a “tolerable” version
Where I was living a lie
And after all of these years
I still find it hard to cry
I should have been happy
Because I was married
But they left me with these feelings
That I can’t keep buried
How can I trust someone new
When my spouse broke my hope
I longed for a connection
They didn’t want to know
When I needed them most
They were not there
I reached out for help
And they didn’t even care
I was over being neglected
I was their last priority
Now how am I supposed to trust
That anyone can show up for me
After three years I’m still healing
Because I carry this burden
From the decade that I spent
Trying to love an Urban