I Love You

August 28th, 2011

I like our phone conversations
Very few
But very long
I like hearing your voice
When I’m half asleep
Making me wish you were here
Like in the days
And early nights
Wrapping your arms around me
Holding me tight
You make things feel right
With your lips on mine
Or my cheek
My neck
You changed my life
I was a wreck
I thank you for that
Though you might not know
You make me happy
I hope it shows
You don’t leave my mind
Filled in thoughts
I wonder about you
Quite a lot
Some things unclear
I wanted to know how you feel
And when you said it
I couldn’t believe it was real
You love me too much
I didn’t know what to say
My mind lost in thoughts
So carried away
I haven’t forgot
These words in my head
You’re still on my mind
With these words left unsaid
They should speak for themself
But if you don’t know
I love you
Please don’t let me go

You Love Me?

July 4th, 2011

You said it
But did you hear
Because now I’m so confused
You mouthed it
But was it what you once said
Or am I more confused
You drew it
But I didn’t see
The confusion washing over me
The words in my thoughts
This feeling so hot
My mind hasn’t forgot
Why can’t these words be bought

Epiphany

February 23rd, 2025

Don’t approach at all 
Or proceed with caution
The dilemma I face
Increasing more often
Did I ignore the signs
What did they mean
I’m stewing on this
Because it was not foreseen
I’m learning about myself
From my reaction to others
And when life gets hard
I want to hide under the covers
I thought it was anxious
But I have disorganized attachment
Trying to put pieces together
But I’m grasping them in fragments 
What I thought was a disorder
Could be my nervous system
Stuck between physiological reactions
I forget all of my wisdom
And then I confuse love
With the intensity of limerence
Will I ever find what I need
If I don’t know the difference
I’m not sure I’m fixable
But I’m working on myself
The lessons I need to learn 
Before I can love somebody else