Easy

November 14th, 2023

I had my life together
When you asked how I was doing
Why would you do this again
You make my life confusing

[Chorus 1:]
You know what you’re doing
What you’re putting me through
When you walked away
How was that easy for you?

I think I was happy
For eight months you were a ghost
But I still remember
When I wanted you the most

The history I share with you
Remembering the past
I thought I’d never see you again
The feelings my heart recast

[Chorus 1:]
You know what you’re doing
What you’re putting me through
When you walked away
How was that easy for you?

Telling me to look at you
Then all you did was smile
A new feeling of intimacy
I hadn’t felt in a while

I thought things were different
This cycle of insanity
But I will never be enough
To share your life of vanity

[Chorus 1:]
You know what you’re doing
What you’re putting me through
When you walked away
How was that easy for you?

I don’t want to love you
Now is it too late?
I need to address this
Your words hold a weight

Just say something, anything
Tell me to stay
Your silence is deafening
It’s not easy to walk away

[Chorus 2:]
You know what you did
What you put me through
But you don’t respond
How is this easy for you?

Write You Away

December 18th, 2010

No other words to describe it
I still wonder in guilt
I call this confusion
Locked in the walls I built
They’re not coming down
I live life in shame
And the more I start to wonder
The more I feel insane
Nothing’s alright
Nothing’s okay
Why are you still on my mind
Why won’t you go away
I write you off
The words drop from my pen
But after sometime
You’re back once again

The Prison of My Skin

January 4th, 2010

The dark surrounding followed me
This is something more
The spinning room is haunting me
No exit and no door
And everything is moving
And I can’t make it go away
And after all this time
I’ve lost track of all the days
And laying down I fell right through
There’s no stable place
So weak and just so dizzy
But this is something I have to face
This is nothing that I knew
I’m learning by the time
And I can’t hold on to what matters
Because nothing’s ever mine
And no one’s ever honest
And no one ever cares
And the more it seems I need someone
The more they’re never there
And I mess up and make mistakes
It’s who I’m trapped to be
But lately, I just feel so lost
I hate to know this is me
I hate to face my mirror
I hate how I feel inside
I hate being trapped in my body
Because there’s nowhere I can hide
I can’t escape this prison
My skin just fits too tight
And I’m searching for emotion
But nothing ever just feels right
I hate looking the same
I don’t reflect my soul
And every time I need someone
I let that person go
I never hurt the right way
I just can’t feel the pain
I can’t make myself happy
And I can’t keep myself sane
And here I am inside
I’ve been dying to be free
I just need to move on
Because the girl in the mirror’s not me
My skin is closing in
I can only feel the guilt
Because I did this to myself
Because I dropped the walls I built
So I’ll put them all back up
And I’ll set myself free
Because I can’t hold on to my sanity
In a prison built for me