Haunted

Pain

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July 25th, 2005

*Trigger Warning (Self Harm)*

Pain, pain, just go away
You’re haunting me every day
Agony with a twist
Worse than when you cut your wrist
Separation is a lie
Feelings, feelings, say goodbye
Hollowness in my head
Venom kiss in my bed
Touch of death, I’m going to scream
Can’t stand working with a team
Trapped in my room, stuck in the mess
Screaming over stupid stress
For a while the pain is gone
For a while it’s all done
With a scream it all comes back
This time I’ve decided to attack
As the blood flows I’m not surprised
Never again will I open my eyes

Drown

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April 14th, 2025

This is cliche but it didn’t kill me
I’m just done with this silence
I’m over your inconsistency
Knowing I’ll never find reliance
As the feelings come in waves
I accept that I am broken
And my words won’t change anything
So I leave them unspoken
No one can fix me except myself
But that’s a job that I keep failing
Because I gave you power over me
And then you kept bailing
Maybe it’s the loneliness
That’s making me feel haunted
I just wish it wasn’t you
Who made me feel unwanted
Even though I want to tell you this 
It’s easier to not bring it up again
Because I never asked for anything
And you couldn’t even be a friend
It didn’t even need to be a horizon
You could’ve brought me anything
Now this is the third year in a row
Where you won’t know me in spring
You decided to let me drown
But I know what people say
That it needs to rain in April
To enjoy the flowers in May

Like A Moth To A Flame

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March 21st, 2025

For six months I practiced patience
Not trying to rush a connection
Then things never moved forward
Now I’m stuck in reflection
What did you even want
Were you just playing a game
As I search for any answers
You bury all of your pain
But I know you’ll think of me one day
When you see 11:11 on the clock
Maybe driving past a bowling alley
Or downtown near my old block
When you’re on our favorite game
And you see someone playing Kayle
Or another person named Grimm
And it’ll hit you like hell
I hope you can’t hear GNF now
Without thinking about me
“You don’t know what you have ’til it’s gone”
Is going to sink in eventually
Knowing that you didn’t want to try
And never told me what you wanted
Though I’m empty just the same 
You’ll be the one who’s haunted