Drunk Sensations

October 1st, 2010

The taste
My tongue itself
Will never want to know
The feeling
The numbness
The everything
It’s all too much for me
I don’t want to know
I never want to know
Why did you do this to me
I’m much too young
I’m much too old
For my age
I know too much
I’ve seen too much
The smell
It reeks
While death lingers
You’re too fond of it though
And not too fond of me
Because these drunk sensations stay
Even when they’re gone
They’re not too far away
Because
Somehow
The bottles always empty in your room

Magic

April 22nd, 2010

I grew up on Magic Sands
Sailor Moon and Pokemon cards
Skinned knees from bike rides
Barbies with the girls
Games with the boys
Anything was possible
Until the streetlights came on
Sunsets were mysteries
I couldn’t read the clock
But I would wake up early
To beat my brothers to the Playstation
Overalls and dresses
Hiking and makeup
Childhood was everything
That is should be
Long days on Kristen’s porch
And sneaking into the hot tub
This neighborhood was an adventure
Long walks to the pool
Scootering through the laundry room
Bike rides around the block
My imagination couldn’t stop
But funny to imagine
I ever wanted to grow up
And funnier to realize
This made me who I’ve become

My Brother Once Told Me

August 28th, 2020

My brother once told me
That we were related
We didn’t grow up together
So it needed to be stated
My brother once told me
You look so pretty
Well, pretty ugly
But he was just kidding
My brother once told me
He was having a baby
I was barely a child
And he wasn’t yet eighteen
My brother once told me
His childhood tales
School fires and bomb threats
No lack of details
My brother once told me
He was calling me an ambulance
His instincts to protect me
Were quite miraculous
My brother once told me
I shouldn’t be a poet
Because writers aren’t happy
But I was already devoted
My brother once told me
He lost his employment
But he stopped showing up
Because he relapsed on poison
My brother once told me
He was getting divorced
You can only hurt someone so much
Before they feel no remorse
My brother once told me
It was time to say goodbye
That the cops are after him
He was hard to personify
My brother once told me
That I gained some weight
But he’d lost all of his
And given into a cruel fate
My brother once told me
With a change in his voice
That he likes being homeless
And you can’t change someone’s choice