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Tortured Artists Yield Loss Over Remembrance: Acceptance

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April 20th, 2024

How can I call this the end
When we never really started
You got me attached to you
And then you departed
I’m tired of looking for people
That remind me of you
Because looking for you
Isn’t what I’m meant to do
We’re not Noah and Allie
This was my odyssey
Now it’s my manuscript
And you aren’t in my prophecy
Seeing you was like a river
Something that could consume me
And I could dive in
But I could never be happy
You called me a scaredy cat
As I ignored your fourth message in a row
But you maimed me first
We both needed to let go
Now that you’re a memory
It’s something I’m forced to keep
But I’m past the countless nights
I spent awake without sleep
Moving on from you
I spent three months sober
So I could fully accept
That things were actually over
You’ve got my computer accessories
I’ve got a recording of Sleep Talk
I lost someone who didn’t care about me
While you let someone who loved you walk
During the times you looked me in the eyes
I guess I mistook the semblance
I’m not sure how you could fake that
Now I yield loss over remembrance
You gained my trust
So you could break it
You wanted my love
So I let you take it
I am a fool
And I hate it
But in this crime
I was complaisant 
You were barely tangible
If I’m being realistic
And like you said
We never existed
And you might not know it yet
But I think I’m the loss of your life
You will never know the honor
Of having me as your wife
If they ask me how it ended, it didn’t
And I think I’m okay with that
Because like I’ve said before
I hope you don’t come back
So long, whoever you were
Because this was never fun
So I’ll continue with my search
Of looking for the one
There are 8 billion people in this world
And now I am most certain
That you were one of many
Who will never be my person

Note: This is part five of my pentalogy, which I’ll be posting in reverse order. The parts can be read independently, in sequence, or backward. While the date states I wrote this on April 20th, 2024, the poetry spans from pieces I began and left unfinished over the past two years. April 20th is the day the idea for this story first came to me, and I pulled all of my writing together. I spent about four months working on finishing this, and I’m excited to finally share it!

Tortured Artists Yield Loss Over Remembrance (The Pentalogy)

Part 1: Denial
Part 2: Anger
Part 3: Bargaining
Part 4: Depression
Part 5: Acceptance

Karma

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March 11th, 2024

They knew me as Karma
Back home where I’m from
I’ve let them think they’ve played me
I’ve let them think I’m dumb

Because I follow their lead
But I know a thing or two
Love is not a game
But I’ll play it here with you

[Chorus:]
They think I’m an easy target
Saying “look how I can get her”
But I’m just dodging bullets
Maybe next time they’ll aim better

They’re asking what’s the catch
So I’ll tell them that it’s me
They’re grinning at the challenge
But it won’t be that easy

They think they hold the power
They believe they’re in control
But I’ll John Tucker these boys
Until it takes its toll

[Chorus:]
They think I’m an easy target
Saying “look how I can get her”
But I’m just dodging bullets
Maybe next time they’ll aim better

They were playing all the games
And not noticing my lead
I flipped the script and snagged them
Until I was what they need

They thought they had me fooled
They were telling all their friends
So I will rip their heart out
That’s the way this story ends

[Chorus 2:]
They think I’m an easy target
Saying “look at what I’ve got”
But I just dodged a bullet 
Maybe next time they’ll get shot

And that’s why they call me Karma…

Note: I usually don’t write about things I don’t relate to, but I had this idea for a song and wanted to see how it would play out. I was thinking country female rage.