July 14th, 2024
So many dreams recently
I wish to forget
I’m living a nightmare
In a life of regrets
After my nap yesterday
I’m using a night light again
Held down in my bed
The bad dreams don’t end
Then I woke up in bed
But I was still asleep
A haunted apartment
With things that creep
Pinching my arm
Yelling at myself to wake
And even while resting
I can’t catch a break
July 7th, 2024
The last few nights
Filled with weird dreams
Replaying in my mind
What do they mean
Living in a new place
With people peaking in
Risking the same issues
How do I win
Being drugged by a stranger
There’s always that risk
But dragged to an alternate reality
Do those even exist?
But then I’m working in retail
And I’m collecting sea shells
No idea where they came from
Are these layers of hell?
Then I’m dragged to an event
With decoys of me
So no one can save me
Trapped in this reality
Then the next night again
A strange occupation
Arresting the last person I loved
Now what was this causation
With a parting kiss
I’m back at an old workplace
Some people shouldn’t be there
But I didn’t solve that case
Someone stood up for me
While one questioned my skills
Behavior like this
Had me running for the hills
And it just kept going
Because I’m in a classroom
My friend’s son is arguing
About someone who transferred too soon
Was this all connected
Was there any meaning
I’m looking for significance
But I was only dreaming
April 16th, 2024
There’s guys I gave four chances to
Won’t let there be a fifth
I fell for Mr. Colbert
But first I fell for Mr. Smith
Both of these guys
Had one too many chances
Won’t let there be another
Under any circumstances
[Chorus:]
But I see them in my dreams
And in the people I may know
And the thought of reuniting
Still gives me vertigo
There’s a part of me that’s scared
And not ready to let them go
And trying to move on
There’s a part of me that’s hollow
They exist on paper
And in the corners of my mind
I spend more often than not
Trying to convince myself I’m fine
I miss who I was before
I met either of them in person
Never knew someone so little
For that I am most certain
[Chorus:]
But I see them in my dreams
And in the people I may know
And the thought of reuniting
Still gives me vertigo
There’s a part of me that’s scared
And not ready to let them go
And trying to move on
There’s a part of me that’s hollow
They probably don’t remember it
All the details that I dwell
And missing them lacks logic
Because they put me through hell
And I need to give credit
Where credit is due
Megan Cromwell wrote the song
That inspired me to write this for both of you
[Chorus:]
But I see them in my dreams
And in the people I may know
And the thought of reuniting
Still gives me vertigo
There’s a part of me that’s scared
And not ready to let them go
And trying to move on
There’s a part of me that’s hollow
And maybe I’m thankful
I never had to pick between either
They showed up at different times
And I ended up with neither
They cut the ties
They let me down
When I needed them most
They were nowhere to be found
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And I saw them in my dreams
And in the people I may know
But we’ll never reunite
Because it’s time I let them go
A part of me was scared
And it still gives me vertigo
But I’m still moving on
Filling the parts that they left hollow