June 10th, 2021
Another collision
Like the last two years disappeared
Like before I ever met you
But my memories haven’t cleared
I had consciously chosen
Not to write you into my pages
But I can’t keep pretending
If I want to get through these next stages
And I’ve tried to shake this feeling
But for months it hasn’t faded
You left me in your past
Like it was me who made you jaded
Then I dreamed that you said sorry
When I know you’ll never be
So I’ll write you out of my system
And I can set this free
Denial
Phase
April 29th, 2008
I know I’m not
Don’t say I am
I’ll just deny it
I’ll walk away
I know I don’t
So just shut up
And zip your lips
Just keep them shut
I know I haven’t
Don’t say I did
It’s just a crush
There’s nothing more
You see these tears
They’re not for you
I know they’re not
Don’t say they are
I’m not in love
I know I’m not
It’s just a phase
I don’t love you
I know I’m not
It’s just a phase
I haven’t fallen
I don’t love you
Cursed
February 8th, 2007
Someone tell me
How this works
Is this my heart
Or is it a curse
The feelings so deep
That nobody sees
Are currently tearing up
The insides of me
I want to believe
Everything you say
But my heart says
There’s no way
It tells me all these things
They aren’t real
It tells me to
Forget to feel
So I try
I really do
But all these feelings
Lead me to you
And I hold on
I keep my hope
But all my heart says
Is nope
Don’t believe
The words they say
Just wait
Wait for the day
They will twist words
They will lie
And one day because of them
You will cry
I hold my tears back
I keep my fake smile
I keep my hope strong
I overthink my denial
But still my heart
It drives me insane
It shouldn’t be like this
I shouldn’t feel this pain
I close my eyes
Because what’s in my heart
Is slowly tearing me
Apart
Doll Poetry 