December 21st, 2021
Trying to process this year
But time has been frozen
I don’t know what to do
With this life I haven’t chosen
So much has happened
In only one year
So much change
And people who disappear
How do I proceed
When a new year awaits
What will I decide
When the world celebrates
June 24th, 2010
I watched the world spin round
I felt the cold breeze chill me
With no one there to keep me warm
I knew I was alone
The view of my window
Never seemed to change
The colors brighten
But it all still stayed so same
Time grew things old
But still, nothing is changing
The world is still spinning
And they all think I am crazy
Old colors fade to grey
And the new is next to go
And though it’s sunny now
It’ll all just fade to cold
The seasons change
Just to watch everything grow
But time is so inevitable
And they all know that I’m crazy
April 15th, 2010
She walks slowly down the stairs
Hands pressed tight against the walls
Too drunk to control her movement
But not wanting to fall
The blank look in her eyes
She’s not really there
No expression, only pain
She thinks that no one cares
She doesn’t know yet
Alcohol is not the cure
Every new bottle I want to smash
But she’s made it so clear
I can’t make her change
She doesn’t care that she hurts her family
Just keeps drinking from that cup
And this is no role model for me
I can’t change the glass in her hand
It never seems to run dry
And I can’t fix the pain she feels
But I also can’t care when she cries
If she was still my mother
Why does she hurt me
She’s killing herself with a bottle
But she would disagree
She doesn’t want to stop
I’m not worth her time
And I can’t fix her life
So I have to fix mine
She can’t accept I’ve tried
But I’m not enough
I try to stay strong
But I’m not that tough
She’s poisoning herself
This shouldn’t be right
But if this is all you’ll ever be
I’ll have to give up this fight
Would you want this for me
To take after you
I wish you could see
How much more you could do
Doll Poetry 