Don’t Come Back (Part 2)

January 22nd, 2024

You might be a vegan
But you caught me like a fish in a hook
I’m begging you to release me
I don’t belong on a shelf like a book
You have more compassion for animals
You try to oversimplify
By telling me you don’t know what you want
But you still won’t say goodbye
I told you that was all I needed
I couldn’t have you disappear again
Then I don’t hear from you
Going against calling me a friend
There’s no basic respect
You want what you want
You say you don’t know what that is
But you know what it’s not
There’s a lump in my throat
I don’t know what to do with
I say that I don’t cry
But I need to release this
I let one tear go
But there’s so much more
I’ve bottled up everything
To not be who I was before
And I lay myself down
In all my broken pieces
I’m trying to convince myself
That I really don’t need this
Because I loved you as a person
I don’t know if I felt more
But what do I do with this love
You don’t want anymore
I pretend that I don’t care
But you know that’s a lie
How can I let this go
When you couldn’t say bye
So I will use my words
To strike this match
And burn our bridge
You can’t have me back

(Don’t Come Back Part 1)

The Door

October 6th, 2009

I find myself hiding,
in corners of my mind,
I was raised like this,
my walls can’t be broken down.

I’ve been placed here,
built the bricks up high,
and I’m scared to climb over,
because they’re too wobbly.

There’s no foundation,
they’re trying to break down,
and I find myself scared,
even if it’s what I want.

I need to let them in,
I lead them to the door,
just a step more,
then I lock myself in.

RIP Karissa Urban

August 25th, 2022

I tried to work through our neverending strife
But it soon consumed my entire life
I weathered the storms of every ache
And there’s only so much a person can take
I tried to love you but you shut me out
Filled my head with nothing but doubt
You never understood my language of love
So I never felt anything but the lack thereof
When I was injured you only thought of gain
Leaving me to pick myself up in vain
You broke me with your absence of care
While I was belittled you stood and stared
You let your family speak to me with disdain
Bit your tongue which caused me pain
And when you apologized on my behalf
Your actions inscribed our epitaph