April 24th, 2021
Are you listening to me
I see you disassociate from our conversation
Engaged with another
Like they’re your salvation
Are you seeing me
You make me feel lamentable
Like I’m too much or not enough
Because you’ve deemed me as dispensable
Do you hear your contradictions
Holding me to higher standards than you alone
Inconsistent with your actions
Get off your self-appointed throne
October 29th, 2009
I am alone in a crowded room
I see everyone, but I’m just another face
I hear their voices, but they all blur into one
I smell the odor of death in the air, surrounding me
I feel it in my bones that I won’t make it any longer
I think I’ve finally lost hope of being saved
I fear that I’m going to be forgotten
I wish it didn’t have to be this way
I believe my plans were much more than God had planned for myself
I am dying
Note: This was a school assignment based off of a photo from the Holocaust.
October 11th, 2009
So suddenly
I can’t believe
I let myself get into this
And anxiously
I made believe
Happy endings really exist
And on my own
And so alone
I found comfort in a voice
And in the sound
So interwound
I led myself into a choice
And questioning
What once believed
A path I’d find would do me right
And nervously
I can’t believe
I once was looking for the light
And in the end
It will make sense
But nothing seems to anymore
And up and down
This stupid road
Still looking for an open door
I once believed
I once thought true
That love was a mutual feeling
But years of pain
And weekly crying
My broken heart’s finally done healing
And late at night
I couldn’t sleep
With thoughts of you clouding my mind
I took the pain
I took the confusion
Cause loving you just made me blind
And out of sight
Was never out of mind
Until I found someone thought to be better
But I got caught up
I tripped too fast
To find myself under the weather
And friends can’t see
When they’re not around
And maybe I found
I like it that way
And so confused
And so confused
And so confused
And so confused
I can’t say it enough
To bring out it’s worth
Because so confused
Is all I’m worth