Irreconcilable

December 8th, 2022

Once upon a time we were happy
And now that feeling is gone
Saying “I love you” out of habit
Made me feel I’d done something wrong
Debating whether to stay or go
Through moments of despair and confusion
I didn’t want it to be over
But it felt like an illusion
I’d say the same things over
My message never changed
You still refused to listen
Our marriage became estranged
Screaming in my head that I didn’t want this
Feeling completely divided
Praying for some conclusion
When deep down it’d been decided
I’m looking for something that you can’t give
It’s time for dissolution
I need to move on and let this go
It’s time for my revolution

The Invitation

July 18th, 2022

You were unexpected to say the least
When your messages consumed my time
I was looking for a distraction
And you seemed to be inclined
A spontaneous invitation
An arrangement from a joke
I accepted your offer
Which you did not revoke
The taste of whiskey on your tongue
The scent tingling my nose
I admit I kissed you first
You played me like dominos
A careless decision in the midnight hours
A feeling I’ve never known
I got lost inside your games
When I should have stayed alone

Drawback

March 15th, 2011

The same place I ignore
For lack of the allure
The knocking on my door
I’ve never felt like that before
The emptiness inside
The only place to hide
Myself where I confide
To know I’d only lied
The pounding in my head
To know what I had said
To trust in what I read
I did to get ahead
Myself and what I lack
Inside of my attack
I’m never coming back
I am my own drawback