August 11th, 2025
Not sure what you got out of this
When you never wanted more
But you still wanted to talk to me
And not close the door
I have to fill in the blanks
Bridge communication you wouldn’t say
Trying to figure out what happened
When you asked me out for Valentine’s Day
Your eyes wouldn’t meet mine
Across the table at Leatherby’s
Maybe you were just lonely
I guess I’ll never know why you invited me
June 11th, 2025
I’m finally opening my eyes
And letting myself embrace the validity
I filled my head with excuses you’d never give
You’ve probably laughed at my stupidity
I gave you endless patience
That you had never earned
And I abandoned all the things
That I knew I really deserved
Someone who actually wanted me
Wouldn’t leave me in this confusion
And I can’t even blame you
When I’m the one who built the illusion
You told me time and time again
Through your actions and your words
You’re “just not that interested”
I’m not what you’re moving towards
So I’m sorry I never listened
And I’m sorry for being clueless
But I need to apologize to myself
For waiting for you to choose this
Personal Note: Off subject, but I just wanted to share a small moment for my brother TJ, who passed away on this day four years ago (12/15/2021). I hope you’re resting in peace.
February 24th, 2025
I have to respect it
You set a boundary
Said you didn’t want to hear
The things that upset me
I thought we were friends
Maybe I was wrong
I try to find my people
But I can only long
I’m alone in this world
I don’t have anyone close
It makes me feel like a burden
When I try to disclose
There’s no one to talk to about my day
What stressed me out or made me smile
And I liked being alone
But that only lasted for a while
Sometimes I need someone
Who I can talk to
Longing for connection
But I let the wrong people through