April 29th, 2008
I know I’m not
Don’t say I am
I’ll just deny it
I’ll walk away
I know I don’t
So just shut up
And zip your lips
Just keep them shut
I know I haven’t
Don’t say I did
It’s just a crush
There’s nothing more
You see these tears
They’re not for you
I know they’re not
Don’t say they are
I’m not in love
I know I’m not
It’s just a phase
I don’t love you
I know I’m not
It’s just a phase
I haven’t fallen
I don’t love you
April 28th, 2008
Your lips were near
But I could not touch them again
I could not feel them again
I could not love them again
Not like I used to
Such a familiar temptation
Your body was close
But I could not touch you again
I could not feel you again
I could not love you again
Not like I used to
Not anymore
Such a familiar temptation
The ocean was cold
But I could not touch it again
I could not feel it again
I could not love it again
Not like I used to
Not anymore
Not without you
Such a familiar temptation
February 8th, 2007
Someone tell me
How this works
Is this my heart
Or is it a curse
The feelings so deep
That nobody sees
Are currently tearing up
The insides of me
I want to believe
Everything you say
But my heart says
There’s no way
It tells me all these things
They aren’t real
It tells me to
Forget to feel
So I try
I really do
But all these feelings
Lead me to you
And I hold on
I keep my hope
But all my heart says
Is nope
Don’t believe
The words they say
Just wait
Wait for the day
They will twist words
They will lie
And one day because of them
You will cry
I hold my tears back
I keep my fake smile
I keep my hope strong
I overthink my denial
But still my heart
It drives me insane
It shouldn’t be like this
I shouldn’t feel this pain
I close my eyes
Because what’s in my heart
Is slowly tearing me
Apart
Doll Poetry 