September 27th, 2019
I can’t let this go
So I drive where it’s far
While my heart is beating louder
Than the rain on my car
The music diverts my thoughts
So I play it on loud
Because speaking my truth
Was never allowed
My hands start to tremble
But I hold my grip
I will fight for what’s right
And not let this slip
I give and I give
But it’s my turn to take
So no matter what happens
I’m not going to brake
August 4th, 2005
I believed in the lies
And denied the truth
Why am I surprised
I should’ve known better than to trust you
[Chorus:]
I really thought you were my friend
But I was wrong
You brought this friendship to an end
Yeah I found out
I really thought that I could trust you
Maybe I was blind
I just couldn’t see
It was always right in front of me
Guys can be jerks
Girls can be too
Trust can be broken between me and you
[Chorus:]
I really thought you were my friend
But I was wrong
You brought this friendship to an end
Yeah I found out
I really thought that I could trust you
Dreams have been shattered
Nothing else mattered
I’m losing my mind
And I’ve never felt this blind
[Chorus:]
I really thought you were my friend
But I was wrong
You brought this friendship to an end
Yeah I found out
I really thought that I could trust you
November 4th, 2018
Everyday I wake up and look in the mirror
I smile and say I’m fine
But I know that’s not the truth
When I’m living a life that’s not mine
Some people know my story
Some say they’re thankful to meet someone like them
But when they see the real me
They walk away because they can’t comprehend
That I actually have a disease
My depression is not a trend
My anxiety is crippling
And I just needed a friend
But they take the first out that they get
Because friends come and go
And I can’t get too close
To someone who doesn’t know
Because I drop my walls
To those who don’t say goodbye
It’s hard to stop myself
When I don’t have to live my lie
But people don’t like the real me
They want the version I don’t know
So I will keep my distance
With a smile and a show
Note: I read a new poem this week. If you can’t tell, I was unpracticed and extremely nervous. However, this is the real me.
Doll Poetry 