April 12th, 2024
I’m trying to convince myself
That these things are not signs
When I know the truth
You were never mine
Why am I so convinced
We just needed more time
And the truth of it all
Is I just need more wine
Truth
Til Death Do Us Part
March 23rd, 2024
Every once in a while in my mind
I catch myself reminiscing
A love I know I’ll never forget
But there was always something missing
Thinking about it is surreal
My twenties feel like a different life
Spent with my high school sweetheart
A time I found myself as a wife
For years fighting the truth
Like a scene on a stage
The ideas lingered in my mind
But they never left my page
After a while of denial
I could no longer fight
“You can go fuck yourself”
He said to me with spite
Not wanting to admit
There was no love left
Playing the victim
But never confessed
He was the one who broke me
I grieved for a year before leaving
And I took the title of the bad guy
Because it seemed to be believing
I was never a suspect
Now here I am under arrest
Feeling like I got hit by a car
And he acted under duress
I know he didn’t love me anymore
Or at least not like he did before
Picking everything over me
What’d he do that for
I gave all that I could
And he took me for a joke
I didn’t know what else to do
With this heart of mine he broke
I needed to depart
He put me through turmoil
There was nothing left to do
Once he let my love spoil
Now I find him in little crevices
I didn’t know exist
He left his mark on me
In more ways than I can list
But I washed my hands of this
Until my knuckles cracked and bled
We said “til death do us part”
And Karissa Urban is dead
The Deceiver
March 6th, 2024
I was starting to hate myself
Feeling like you made me a paramour
At one time I thought that I knew you
But you left the truth behind locked doors
I don’t understand how you can’t stomach coffee
But you can stomach cheating on your girlfriend
Or how you failed to mention her for over a year
Leaving what happened with this bitter end
Was she the girl I saw you with last summer
When you said it was your friend from out of town
How long did you premeditate cheating
Did you hope I’d eventually come around
This is the last time that I’ll lower my standards
You’re not attractive enough to treat people this way
Someone needs to put you in your place
How many women did you betray
Now there’s a new girl that you’re dating
And I think you really deserve each other
Because she knew that I was seeing you
When she took you under her covers
Did she know about your girlfriend too
Did she just not care like she didn’t about me
What does she think about the fact
That you still watch all of my stories
I deleted you from social media
But you followed my public profile again
It’s clear that I want nothing to do with you
So why do you still watch them
I now know that I was never the problem
It’s people like you who act without consequence
I hope one day you get your karma
And you’re caught with no defense
Doll Poetry 