March 29th, 2019
Time is running out
I don’t have enough
I’m fighting over deadlines
And other stupid stuff
My thoughts are a mess
I don’t know what to do
I’m having anxiety
That I can’t make it through
But I’m almost done
And I’m almost there
I have to pull myself together
Because I’m supposed to care
Yet I can’t live up to these standards
When I set them for myself
I just wish I lived an ordinary life
And wanted nothing else
October 24th, 2005
It’s nothing you can see
Invisible to all but me
It’s something only I can feel
So let me go, what’s the big deal
[Chorus:]
Invisibility, the pain they can’t see
It’s invisible to all but me
It hurts so bad, feels so real
Just let me go like it’s no big deal
You hurt me, left a scar
Took the pain way too far
Time seems to run out way too fast
You left me in the shadows of your past
[Chorus:]
Invisibility, the pain they can’t see
It’s invisible to all but me
It hurts so bad, feels so real
Just let me go like it’s no big deal
So invisible, so worthless
So I lived my life just for this
So empty, so heartless
So you had to go and start this
[Chorus:]
Invisibility, the pain they can’t see
It’s invisible to all but me
It hurts so bad, feels so real
Just let me go like it’s no big deal
Just let me go – what’s the big deal?
You let me go – cause it’s no big deal…
August 15th, 2005
I feel the lightning running through my veins
I know these thoughts are driving me insane
I can’t help but wish they were all dead
I can’t help but let these thoughts haunt my head
I feel like I’m all broken up inside
I can’t help but misplace all my pride
I can’t help but feel like dying every day
And every single second wastes my time away
[Chorus:]
I feel like I’m dying from the inside out
I can’t help but feeling like I always need to shout
I want to scream until my face turns blue
And maybe then – I will – forget about you
Lightning, thunder, take my pain away
Come on baby make my day
I’m sitting here and wondering why
I can’t help it, I know I’m gonna die
Here I am, all alone
With all my feelings that go unshown
I’m lying here and I’m dying this way
So pull the trigger and take my pain away
[Chorus:]
I feel like I’m dying from the inside out
I can’t help but feeling like I always need to shout
I want to scream until my face turns blue
And maybe then – I will – forget about you
It’s only normal to feel this way
It’s the feeling I’m feeling every day
Drifting away, far at sea
All these feelings are taking over me
[Chorus:]
I feel like I’m dying from the inside out
I can’t help but feeling like I always need to shout
I want to scream until my face turns blue
And maybe then – I will – forget about you
Doll Poetry 