March 2nd, 2024
Do I have anything new to say
I guess that I don’t know
My dream last night
Was hard to let go
Realization in the middle
That things were not real
When it’s what I want
But I need to heal
Did I go along with it
The details are fading
I want to remember
These thoughts are invading
But I know I won’t recover
Until I walk away
Even in my dreams
I can’t let you stay
February 19th, 2024
A few months ago I went to a psychic fair
And they knew my connection to two
The guy I’ve known for lifetimes
And the other was someone new
They made it clear
Neither were my soulmate
But both were lessons I needed
While I find my path to fate
Now that they’re both gone
What was I supposed to learn
The guy from many lifetimes
Just constantly returns
But the newer guy was just like the first
So I guess that bears the question
How many more lifetimes
Is he supposed to be my lesson
Because this lifetime sent him to me thrice
His attributes in another person
I fell for the second when I couldn’t have the first
Their similarities are certain
Both born right after Christmas
But 364 days apart
Alike in so many ways
Including the way they hurt my heart
But the second guy is actually the third
Because there was another before
I keep looking for guy number one
Every time he closes the door
They have almost the same name
And live off of the same street
Will I keep looking for him
In every one I meet
Am I doomed in reincarnation
Why does he have a hold on me
What is it I’m not learning?
Why won’t he set me free?
A psychic can only tell you so much
And I don’t know what I believe
I need to cut this connection
But he never stays gone when he leaves
Maybe it’s because the stars aligned the day we met
When Mars and Venus encountered Pluto in Capricorn
And I heard this karmic cycle is ending this week
So I’m letting go for a new connection to be born
November 14th, 2023
I had my life together
When you asked how I was doing
Why would you do this again
You make my life confusing
[Chorus 1:]
You know what you’re doing
What you’re putting me through
When you walked away
How was that easy for you?
I think I was happy
For eight months you were a ghost
But I still remember
When I wanted you the most
The history I share with you
Remembering the past
I thought I’d never see you again
The feelings my heart recast
[Chorus 1:]
You know what you’re doing
What you’re putting me through
When you walked away
How was that easy for you?
Telling me to look at you
Then all you did was smile
A new feeling of intimacy
I hadn’t felt in a while
I thought things were different
This cycle of insanity
But I will never be enough
To share your life of vanity
[Chorus 1:]
You know what you’re doing
What you’re putting me through
When you walked away
How was that easy for you?
I don’t want to love you
Now is it too late?
I need to address this
Your words hold a weight
Just say something, anything
Tell me to stay
Your silence is deafening
It’s not easy to walk away
[Chorus 2:]
You know what you did
What you put me through
But you don’t respond
How is this easy for you?
Doll Poetry 