Gravedigger

November 19th, 2021

I don’t know what to do
I leaped into a rabbit hole
I think I’m digging my own grave
But I like having the control
Constantly going with the flow
Wherever life takes me
Then there’s people like you
And I find your life fascinating
You can make your own path
I’m enchanted by the choices
Be cultured and experienced
Instead of hearing the same old voices
I’ve thought this for a while
But this feeling is something new
Do I stay where I feel safe
Or do I take a chance like you?

Panic

July 31st, 2010

An unknown feeling has been following me
And it hasn’t gone away
So I walk around paranoid
Because it lusts me every day
The night is when it’s most clear
And I can almost taste it
But this feeling makes me antsy
I just don’t want to face it
When it crawls up my legs
It sends shivers all around
And in the dark
The feeling will be found
It tries to take my hand
And I refuse to let it do so
I know I can be stronger
If I wait it might let go
But still, I feel surrounded
I feel so boxed away
I feel like something’s wrong
And I feel it every day
The open door is waiting
The closed door is wanting
And the light wants to be off
So the dark can start haunting
The sounds in the day
The sounds in the night
Everything you’re feeling
You know it can’t be right
You try to stand your ground
You try to think it’s fake
But between your dreams and reality
You know that you’re awake
So you try to figure out
If it was just a dream
But the more you figure out
The more real that it seems
So you try to stay awake
You feel like you’re awake
You think that you’re awake
And start to wonder if it’s fake
You can only feel the cold
And nothing feels okay
Because you just can’t move
This nightmare took your life away

Nothing But Same

June 24th, 2010

I watched the world spin round
I felt the cold breeze chill me
With no one there to keep me warm
I knew I was alone
The view of my window
Never seemed to change
The colors brighten
But it all still stayed so same
Time grew things old
But still, nothing is changing
The world is still spinning
And they all think I am crazy
Old colors fade to grey
And the new is next to go
And though it’s sunny now
It’ll all just fade to cold
The seasons change
Just to watch everything grow
But time is so inevitable
And they all know that I’m crazy