Hoping (For The Best)

June 9th, 2011

I can’t help but wonder how this happened so fast
But I’m so scared that again it won’t last
I’ve been given another chance and I won’t let it go
I’ve been longing for this more than anyone knows
I write you away, but you won’t leave my mind
The idea of you just makes me feel blind
I wanted you from the very start
And I watched us slowly fall apart
If things fall into place, that will be the rest
Now all I can do is hope for the best

Haunted

July 14th, 2024

So many dreams recently
I wish to forget
I’m living a nightmare
In a life of regrets
After my nap yesterday
I’m using a night light again
Held down in my bed
The bad dreams don’t end
Then I woke up in bed
But I was still asleep
A haunted apartment
With things that creep
Pinching my arm
Yelling at myself to wake
And even while resting
I can’t catch a break

The Vertigo of Letting Go

April 16th, 2024

There’s guys I gave four chances to
Won’t let there be a fifth
I fell for Mr. Colbert
But first I fell for Mr. Smith

Both of these guys
Had one too many chances
Won’t let there be another
Under any circumstances

[Chorus:]
But I see them in my dreams
And in the people I may know
And the thought of reuniting 
Still gives me vertigo
There’s a part of me that’s scared
And not ready to let them go
And trying to move on
There’s a part of me that’s hollow

They exist on paper
And in the corners of my mind
I spend more often than not
Trying to convince myself I’m fine

I miss who I was before
I met either of them in person
Never knew someone so little
For that I am most certain

[Chorus:]
But I see them in my dreams
And in the people I may know
And the thought of reuniting 
Still gives me vertigo
There’s a part of me that’s scared
And not ready to let them go
And trying to move on
There’s a part of me that’s hollow

They probably don’t remember it
All the details that I dwell
And missing them lacks logic
Because they put me through hell

And I need to give credit
Where credit is due
Megan Cromwell wrote the song
That inspired me to write this for both of you

[Chorus:]
But I see them in my dreams
And in the people I may know
And the thought of reuniting 
Still gives me vertigo
There’s a part of me that’s scared
And not ready to let them go
And trying to move on
There’s a part of me that’s hollow

And maybe I’m thankful
I never had to pick between either
They showed up at different times
And I ended up with neither

They cut the ties
They let me down
When I needed them most
They were nowhere to be found

[Chorus 2:]
And I saw them in my dreams
And in the people I may know
But we’ll never reunite
Because it’s time I let them go
A part of me was scared
And it still gives me vertigo 
But I’m still moving on
Filling the parts that they left hollow