Sirens

January 7th, 2011

Falling to the floor
In shock
No idea what happened
I look up at the wall
I shake in pain
And grab my head
My hands come down wet
My hands came down red
I run to the bathroom
The bleeding won’t stop
The pounding so loud
The people surrounding me
The questions won’t end
And as soon as they do
The sirens take me away
To another place
They say I’ll be okay

What better day to share the story of the events that transpired on 4/11/2003, and how I got what I like to call my “Harry Potter” scar.

Liaison of Vast Endearment

January 4th, 2022

How is a word so scary
Removed it from my vocabulary
Except I used to feel too strongly
Until the word was used so wrongly
I felt that way about the word
A fluttering feeling when it was heard
Art and poetry filled with its letters
Then I realized that it deserved better
No meaning to support the claim
Because they say it all the same
Waiting to feel the warmth of the flame
So I avoid using its name

Fears

March 24th, 2010

It scares me
The thought that once again I’m fooled
Because I am so naive
And vulnerable
Should I trust again
The question doesn’t leave my mind
I’m feeling so lost
I’m feeling less sain
My heart has a way
Of getting the best of me
Does this deserve the best?
Do I even have a best?
These chemicals are overwhelming
I can’t keep a thought
I can’t fight my feelings
I need this to stop
I don’t know what’s right
I’m scared of the past
I try to keep hope
But I just can’t forget
Haunting my thoughts
And I can’t let it go
These feelings are confusing me
More than you know
Should I give in
Should I take a chance
My heart is so restless
Beating out of my chest