Go

April 9th, 2019

When I first met you
You’d take me on long drives
But your car became your escape
Now we’re living different lives

When I first met you
I loved all that you are
But the only thing you loved
Was the comfort of your car

[Chorus:]
All you do is go (go)
It’s tearing me apart
I’m keeping it together
When I have a broken heart
All you do is leave (leave)
Again you steer away
Even without words
You knew I wanted you to stay

Even at this time
I still want you to care
I don’t know who I am fooling
Because you were never there

Even at this time
I wonder how you are
The only sign you give
Is when you take off in your car

[Chorus:]
All you do is go (go)
Your car was our department
I’m keeping it together
And I’m ready to jump start
All you do is leave (leave)
Again on the freeway
Even without words
I know you’ll regret this someday

All you do is run (run)
You don’t know how to stay
I’m worth more than a car
It’s my turn to drive away

Note: I must have written that chorus months ago without ever physically writing it down. I couldn’t decide how I wanted it to go, so each time is a new verse. I don’t usually write songs, but I attempt every once in awhile!

Distance

March 13th, 2019

They say to leave the past
at that

What once was a moment
that didn’t last

They say to move forward
and start a new chapter

But why does this fill me
with anxiety after

They say to run
that you must first crawl

But what if the wrong step
leads to my downfall

They say that this
will lead me astray

But how far can one get
when they run away

Goodbye (Sorry Means Nothing)

August 2004

It’s hard for me to say
What’s becoming of this day
Never knowing what to do
I always end up running back to you

[Chorus:]
Hey, I was dreaming of you
Late last night (oh)
I was in love with you
But now that feeling’s gone
Never knowing what to say
It’s like you ditched me every day
My heart is beating uncontrollably
I’m going to cry
It’s time to say goodbye
To all of my feelings that have been unleashed
Lock them in a cage, get out of this stupid stage
All of this happened because you said goodbye

Maybe I could at least say sorry
But the pain you put me through isn’t over
I’m always crying over this but it happened months ago
It’s hard to forget all your twisted lies

I wish I could lock them up in a cage
Why am I stuck in this stupid stage
Water dripping from my eyes so much like a faucet
My dreams are missing in action

[Chorus:]
Hey, I was dreaming of you
Late last night (oh)
I was in love with you
But now that feeling’s gone
Never knowing what to say
It’s like you ditched me every day
My heart is beating uncontrollably
I’m going to cry
It’s time to say goodbye
To all of my feelings that have been unleashed
Lock them in a cage, get out of this stupid stage
All of this happened because you said goodbye

Maybe you could have said sorry
And maybe I would have forgave you
But that’s all for now
Never say sorry
It means nothing
Goodbye

Goodbye
Goodbye
Sorry means nothing
Goodbye

My heart is beating really fast
My hands are getting sweaty
Will this moment ever last
Holding on is getting hard
Why is life like this

[Chorus:]
Hey, I was dreaming of you
Late last night (oh)
I was in love with you
But now that feeling’s gone
Never knowing what to say
It’s like you ditched me every day
My heart is beating uncontrollably
I’m going to cry
It’s time to say goodbye
To all of my feelings that have been unleashed
Lock them in a cage, get out of this stupid stage
All of this happened because you said goodbye

Note: I found some older writing, mostly songs, on my computer. I will be posting these the remainder of this month – feel free to laugh at my teenage angst!

2004 (5)