Fiction

July 1st, 2019

The words don’t leave my pencil
You must be satisfied
Because I bottled up my feelings
And I buried them alive
I don’t want any pity
There must be some confusion
I am more than my own story
And your fictitious disillusion
You pretend that you know me
When all you know is your perception
So I gave myself a new identity
And stepped away from your rejection
But you send me right back to that place
Like I’m a scared little kid
Because you still hold that power
When you refuse to admit what you did
So you can write your own narrative
And you can convince yourself it’s true
But no matter how you conclude this
I will never forgive you

Reflected

September 27th, 2005

I want to wake up and know everything’s okay
Instead — I just slip away
Into the blackness of my heart
The closer the light, the farther apart
In the corner of my eyes I can see
The moving of my life as it’s dragging along me
In the mirror is my reflection
And in its heart is your rejection
All of my pain is reflected from me
None of it they can see
It’s all about my shattered heart
Thousands of pieces all fallen apart

 

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Reflection

August 20th, 2005

I push you away
To pull you back in
Can’t get you out of my head
You’re under my skin
You’re a curse
That’s meant to fade
You’re cold like ice
And smooth like jade
In your mirror
Is your reflection
In my eyes
Is your rejection
In your heart
There’s no trace of me
In my heart
Is what your reflection can’t see

 

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