April 2nd, 2011
Back in that house
I couldn’t be safe
The feeling of comfort
Was too far away
I thought I would die
I thought you wouldn’t care
Cause every time I cried
You were never there
The bruises have healed
But the memories stay
And two houses later
It hasn’t gone away
Because I cannot forgive
The things I’ll never forget
And everything I went through
Do you even regret
Only one scar remains
Because it was real
And though you won’t admit it
Time will never heal
May 31st, 2021
I feel beside myself
Am I even here
My life turned into
Something insincere
Is this the wakeup call
That I have been needing
These wounds never healed
I can still feel them bleeding
Taking bits and pieces
I try to keep things together
Nothing ever fits
Will it be like this forever
I’ve crashed and I’ve burned
For something I yearn
A content life
But it’s just not my turn
Is it too much medication
Or is it not enough
When I spill out all my feelings
I regret opening up
Sometimes it comes down to
Taking accountability
Am I holding myself back
From being happy
February 13th, 2010
I liked the idea of you and me
But you didn’t take us seriously
Now all of that is in the past
Because nothing ever seems to last
But it’s something I won’t forget
You’re a prison I’ll always regret
You left me with memories that won’t go away
Could someone else love me anyway?
I hate the fact I have this curse
My heart or my actions, I don’t know which is worse
It’s not like you gave me much of a choice
But it’s not like I didn’t have a voice
I wish I had known before this came to be
Because this is now my reality
And I have to live with this day by day
Could someone else love me anyway?
Doll Poetry 