November 20th, 2018
There’s nothing new to write
I always feel the same way
I’m no different than my past
When I grew up in San Jose
I’m still the same person
I haven’t forgot
Ever since I was a child
I’ve been living a life that I’m not
I’m twenty-six years old
But in my heart I’m still sixteen
Facing the same problems
Like I’m stuck in a time machine
Will I ever grow?
Will I ever learn?
Or have I gone too far?
Am I at the point of no return?
October 2nd, 2004
There’s nothing there to find
My hopes have disappeared
I could feel it
The misty tears running down my cheek
I tried to smile
But I couldn’t
I spun around
Feeling weak and dizzy
I knew I couldn’t change the world
I blinked but I couldn’t see
Everything was so blurry
[Chorus:]
Everyone’s so hard on me
Watching people tryna find out why
Blurry visions conquer me
Hope brings out my tears
Though I’ve gone through all these years
There’s nothing I can do
I can’t make a difference
Smiles are fading
I’m just waiting
I’m a waste of time
My life’s a waste of time
Hope is gone
Fear has come
Knowing I can never be number one
I laugh at myself
My life is fading
[Chorus:]
Everyone’s so hard on me
Watching people tryna find out why
Blurry visions conquer me
Hope brings out my tears
Though I’ve gone through all these years
I’m in a car
Running from my problems
My tears, my tears
Are streaming down my face
Water falling from the sky
The earth is crying too
I feel bad for the world
I’m lying to everyone
[Chorus:]
Everyone’s so hard on me
Watching people tryna find out why
Blurry visions conquer me
Hope brings out my tears
Though I’ve gone through all these years
[Chorus:]
Everyone’s so hard on me
Watching people tryna find out why
Blurry visions conquer me
Hope brings out my tears
Though I’ve gone through all these years
Alone…
May 31st, 2018
What do I feel
I’m not sure I know
I carry this burden
Because I can’t let it go
A glimpse of hope
I watch disappear
I’d say that I’m okay
But I am nowhere near
What are these feelings
I’m not sure
To decode inside my head
Is nothing but a blur
This is an emergency
That no one can solve
And the more I try to change
The issue evolves
All strings are attached
I don’t want to play
If you get too close
I always push away
So what is the problem
They always ask
Maybe they won’t think I’m crazy
If I put on a mask
So I will smile
And say I’m fine
Everyone should know
Never to trust that line
Doll Poetry 